Lessons

ADONAI

Awesome God, how do I fear you?
How do I honour You?
How do I gaze and reflect upon You?
Love's first outbreak, will I ever grasp?

Trying times have found me wanting
Faith and grace questioning
Raving ranting sometimes even screaming
Yet all within me bowing

So great, so explicit and so unexplainable
Infinite into the cold calculating minimal heart descending
Foolishly, fearing letting go of the cross I am clinging
El-Shaddai did not give up the cross nor me

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The Gen 24 Camel

Have you heard of Isaac? No? You can read about him in Genesis. That's where I am from. I am the Genesis 24 camel. I must have been born way before Genesis 24. But who records these things? Anyway, let's get to the point. I am a well-fed camel. I have been around. Kind of always travelled with treasures, you know. My master's father is the great old man Abraham. One day he called the grumpy old Eleazar and asked him to get a bride for my master. Oh bother! The fuss he made... The day came and we set out. I was waiting for my turn. He loaded up Block with the food and water for the journey. Then it was Ben. What amounts of gold... Man you should see it to believe it. Okay then it was the clothes. You guys may not believe it, but back then clothes were a luxury. People killed to get clothes... I am not kidding. And here was my fellow Ben being given a load of that carry on his back. So I watched as spices and other things kept piling up. I am Isaac's favourite camel an...

The Encounter

Don't look at me! I am just a sparrow up a tree. I am not even fit for a sacrifice. It is reserved for those pigeons and doves. I am no good. Just leave me alone. Can't you see, I am trying to hide? Rattle snakes are pretty common out here. Who knows? You might just be one- pretending to be all human. And your being human is no relief to me. If Solo could make the passer -by understand, he would have chirped out the whole thing in under five seconds albeit hidden. But he was too scared to make a sound. All of this monologue was running in his head as the casual commoner strode along after a moment's rest under his tree. That night he had a nightmare. In it, he fell off the tree into a man's hands. He got up with a cold shiver having come so close to feeling dead. For the next several hours, even after the sun had risen brilliantly, he didn't feel like leaving the nest. Hunger forgotten, he imagined the worst. "Solo, you coward, shake...

Post Christmas

After Christmas Yesterday, I read from Matthew second chapter to my children before they went to sleep. When I finished, my daughter said, "I think God saved the entire family when He sent Jesus away to Egypt." It gave me the jitters to think of the next question they would ask me, " if God saved Jesus from Herod, why didn't he save all the children?" The first Christmas was a promise of hope, joy, peace and love. But horror lurked just around the corner. Who knew? God did. He even foretold this misery. The Messiah was to be born into this chaos and grief. Not afterwards nor before that. Grief turns severe during Christmas. New year leaves not much to hope for at homes that have lost loved ones. But Christmas comes nevertheless. Just like kept promises, Christmas comes and with it comes the challenge to love beyond the grief. I don't know the answer to why children die - be it in mass shootings or bizzare accidents. But what I do know is this. T...